home...sorta

So we've been home a few days now...it doesn't seem like everything has happened to us! like we're outsiders looking in. Allan said today, it feels like we're just babysitting for the weekend. He's been getting better about sleeping. Two nights ago, he slept 2-4 hr "shifts" (allan calls them) but last night was a little rougher. He sleeps great on my chest and it gives me comfort too, but during the day sleeps in his bassinet.

Today we went to church with some friends and their family. We had fun, sitting right next to the drums. We thought he would wake up, but he was such a good boy...woke up for a feeding and then fell back asleep...oh after he let out a huge burp...(ya know right when everyone gets quiet) and everyone around heard and bursted out laughing.

His first dr appt is tomorrow and then allan leaves for work on tuesday and I'm by myself. It would be really nice to have him around for at least another week but he only has one week paid vaca.

We also know his plumbing works GREAT!!! He pooped on my mom, me, and my gma so far and has peed on anyone who has changed him....today i was so shocked and didn't have anything around me that wasn't already wet so i had to just put my hand over it so he wouldn't shoot me in the face...i know gross, but it was funny!
Nothing else really to report...

Until next time....

HE'S HERE!!!

Burklee James Jackson
8 lbs 11 oz
21 inches long
born at 1:38p.m.
He's perfect!!!! He's everything we've ever wanted and is such a sweetheart. He already has so much personality!
That was the short story.....and the long story is.....(drum roll please)

We arrive at the hospital 9am tuesday morning to register, get up to the room, and prepare for surgery! Hospital was running late as was our dr so we were supposed to have him 11:30 am when he finally came at 1:38 pm. We walked into the surgical room at 1:30, sat down, got my spinal block, which i thought i was getting an epidural so i was freaking out, shaking and bawling, come to find out, i didn't even feel them insert the numbing needle let alone the spinal block, catheder, or cut my open....so....it was very quick. They don't mess around when it comes to pulling out a baby!
I actually kind of like the feeling of them pulling, tugging, whatever you want to call it when my legs were numb, and I'm not in that much pain now....little in my sholder at first but nothing i couldn't handle....so maybe i am pretty good at this whole baby making thing!
Dr said he was a mule when he was pulling him out.....it took 2 dr's pulling him out and one pushing down on the top of my stomach....
We're breastfeeding but its not going as well as we had hoped! Started out well until one of the nurses gave him a bottle. Now he knows how easy it is to get what he wants...so trying doesn't sound too good to him.....
I would say I'm doing pretty good only having 1 1/2 hrs of sleep in 43 hrs!!!! Here goes another night of sitting up watching over him!

Until next time....

Due....TODAY!!!

So i ended up calling the dr and asked why I couldn't just have a csection instead of going through labor for so many hrs then having one anyway. They wanted to get measurments and the position of the baby so I went in yesterday to have another 3-D sono...he's around 8 lbs 9 oz, but his head is down. The nurse said if I do end up going into labor this weekend or go in to be induced (without the heart rate dropping), she could see me being in labor for around 18 hrs b/c he's so high up, and my cervix hasn't started thinning. So they decided.....I need to come back in on Monday to see the dr one last time!
Its so crazy that I'm due today and I still feel like I have awhile b/c I haven't felt anything new!
This weekend is going to be crazy...tonight we have friends stopping by, tomorrow night we have my dad and two brothers bday, sunday is fathers day so lunch with allan's family, car show at the zoo, and cleaning cleaning cleaning.
So as of now.....we're so excited for TUESDAY!!!

Until next time....

Yaaahhh!!!!!!

so..i went to the dr this morning and......I'm getting induced tuesday, June 23rd. I haven't dropped, my cervix isn't dialated or thinning at all and...my child is really big! I was scheduling my induction with one of the nurse's and they had a new lady working that needed to do an ultrasound for practice so they used me....so i got a 3-D sono but you really couldn't see much since there was hardly any amniotic fluid...i could see his chubby cheeks and nose....they were so big! But he had everything else criss-crossing so we didn't see much else. The next week is going to take so long.
They said most likely I would have to have a c-section but they want to try to induce me first...i think i'm going to call back and just say i want a c-section...no reason to go thru all that freaking pain for them to be thinking i'm going to have a c-section anyways. Surprizingly everyone aggrees with me on that one.
TMI-but...getting checked today hurt so bad....the worst pain i've felt so far! Dr said he was sorry but he could barely reach my cervix so....i'll do lots of walking in the next week then we'll see what they say!

Until next time....

sunburnt....

So we went to the river fest today...didn't end up going last night. We were planning on heading over there around 9 or 10 but didn't make it till noon...no shady spots left so we found sun sun and more sun! I'm burnt, just my arms, tops of my theighs, my nose and back of my neck. Allan also got a little sun! My brother and allan started getting really mad when people started staring...i was getting upset that everyone thinks they need to touch me! just b/c I'm pregnant does not give you the right to walk up and rub my belly...it's mine! you wouldn't like it if i rubbed yours? I think my mom had fun too! We ate lots of food and left a little early...
Today's menu: (me) Jumbo corndog, funnel cake, pulled pork sandwich, baked beans, dippin dots, 4 lemonades
(allan) Beirock, onion strings, seafood pita wrap, 6 bud lights

Yum Yum...

No more baby news for now...dr appt monday!

Until next time....

Feels like dr appt #10,000

So...i'm officially tired of waiting in a waiting room...
I had another dr appt this morning...hoping for some good news to only find out that i'm no where being close. Not dialated. Haven't dropped. No induction appt. I go back Monday to see MY dr and to schedule everything...i'm thinking next monday now. June 22nd. But we're still in the dark.
Went to the Festival Jam last night to do some walking...lasted about an hour and a half till I started having contractions that make me feel dumb today knowing they probably weren't the real thing. So...back to the river festival tonight for some grub, hanging out with my mom most likely, then back tomorrow to look at fine art and lunch....also want to hear a couple of bands!

Last nights menu....indian taco, jumbo corndog, fresh squeezed lemonade
Tonights menu....fresh squeezed lemonade, whatever else baby wants?!?

Until next time....

So....my dr appt...or lack there of

Yesterday I was supposed to have my dr appt at 11:10, they called, changed it to 11:30 with a different dr....Called again, changed it to 2:30 with, again, a different dr. With everything going on and how the appt went last time I didn't get to see my regular dr, I asked allan to tag along....

We show up to find out our dr, who is the on-call dr, just left to go deliever a baby and they'll call us if she comes back...We get home and not even 2 minutes later, they call and say she just showed back up and we can come back. We go back and wait over an hour to find out she left again....seeing everyone else that came in AFTER us!!! They wanted me to come back today to see the dr I seen the last time it didn't go so well...(i'll call him M) so I told them I didn't want to see M and that I would be more than happy to go up to the hospital and get checked by a nurse. Another lady comes out, tells me I'm due next week (like I didn't know), and that I need to get checked by M so they know when to schedule my induction. So....I go Friday at 10:45 to see M and schedule my induction.....so glad allan took the afternoon off!!!

With all of this going on, I haven't been getting any sleep. Not b/c I'm in pain, just b/c I get up to go to the bathroom 5 times a night, and can't get back to sleep. The dogs/allan wake me up between 5 and 6 and I usually don't go back to bed until 7:30. Then I have tons of people calling/txting me at 8a.m. I know they have no clue whats going on but with no sleep, constant calls/txts, people asking if i'm ok or how i'm doing everyday.....ya-I'm starting to get annoyed and letting my nasty side come out!
I know its going to be like this after the baby is here...no sleep, people calling and asking questions, but I plan on turning my phone off or at least on silent when the baby is here. I can't really do that now b/c of dr visits, etc. I just have a feeling I'm going to tell it like it is after I deliever...and I don't think I care if I hurt someones feelings!
So guess I'll update tomorrow after my dr visit...I still have a feeling I have started dialating or efacing yet so we'll see when I'll be popping this thing out....
We've been going for tons of walks lately and a lady in the mall pointed us out and asked if we were trying to walk our kid out....."I said yes, but our son has no sence of direction" -thats my new saying when people ask how I am...i think it still makes me look like a nice person!!!

Until next time....

My fun weekend!!!

So this weekend, I went to Newkirk with my aunt, my mom, and two cousins! Our girls weekend getaway! I wasn't planning on going until friday, my mom called begging saying how fun it was going to be! And it was a lot of fun! It may have been a little much 2 weeks before I'm due but still the most fun i'll have with the girls for awhile! It was my aunts bday and she had been feeling down about it so I went out, got her a tiara and a flashy ribbon to wear...she hated it but loved it! I lost all my money, literally leaving with enough for the toll. $1.60. I'm so thankful I didn't take a debit card or check book. We all lost ALL our money....I only spent $20 on slots, but.....I've recently became a HUGE fan of Blackjack...
I started having contractions during Bingo Sat. I was just about to win...needed one number to win $1,199 and I started having one and couldn't concentrate...my number was in the monitor when someone yelled bingo. looking back, i'm so mad...but at the time, didn't really care. They continued all day and had allan on stand by but they went away once we hit the road! So here I am writting, still pregnant. But we had so...much...fun!!!
We went to a baby shower yesterday and it made me want our baby so bad! I came home crying, allan thought something was wrong, but really I'm just so ready for him to be here...not b/c it hurts or anything, the contractions actually get me excited b/c that means we're one step closer, but b/c I want to hold our little boy....
I got the favors done yesterday also...the cute little monkey ones to hand out at the hospital...i'll post a pic after we have him..don't want to give it away!
I go to the dr wednesday..again! Hopefully he'll have some good news for me but if not, we'll be talking about inducing...and if/when that will be taking place! It would be perfect for it to be on a friday...just b/c that gives allan an extra 3 days to be home with us! We wanted to have the meet and greet 2 weeks after the baby arrives but just realized if he comes the week he's supposed to, 2 weeks will be 4th of July so it will have to wait 3 weeks....
Well guess thats all I have for now...

Until next time....

Today....

So i've been having random thoughts I kinda want to get off my chest....i have no idea if more than one person reads this....well i know for sure my husband does....but i'm using this blog to just keep thought for myself...my little escape!
I've been really frustrated with a few things lately. I've tried to not let them get me down. Allan tells everyone i'm the easiest pregnant lady to have around b/c i never have an attitude and i'm rarely cranky! And i want that for him...i don't want him to dread that hour drive to just be around a girl who is complaining all the time, but....i think i've dealt with a lot of "situations" in the past year that I got upset about but i've let go! Some things that have hurt me so bad and caused allan and I to argue...to the point that a month before the wedding, we decided to put it off....we've never told this to anyone b/c frankly its no ones business but our own. Something else happened between allan and I that took a part in our "mishap" a month before the wedding. I really am sorry allan. We've forgiven eachother numerous times for numerous things.....
yesterday I was thinking of how lucky we are to have eachother and that i'm glad we decided to work things out and continue to get married and have our first baby! I'm so happy we met and things have turned out the way they have....I have so much fun with him whether its waking up to his drunk friends at 3a.m. or just having dinner together! If things hadn't worked out the way they have, we wouldn't have our house toghether (thats seems like everytime we turn around, something goes wrong with it), our dogs, or our baby boy. I'm so grateful he loves my family the way he does...my brothers call him their brother and include him in almost everything. My mom loves him and calls him her son...well she's done that since the first time he stayed the night at her house which was the night we started dating! The fact that she even let him stay the night was a shocker! I'm so happy to have him in my life and that my family has accepted him!
I went to the hospital today, to see my cousins daughter...right before my dr appt. She was so cute and tiny, it made me want our boy here so bad! I left feeling really good and hoping my dr appt would go really well......he looks at my chart and says lets hope your at a "3" which is where he really wanted me by this point and tomorrow I would be going up to the hospital to have him....him saying this got me even more excited! I wasn't dialated AT ALL....I have a 10% chance of having him this week. about 50-70% next week then we'll talk about inducing the week after! 16 days left...we've decided my due date is June 19th. I've had a few contrations which they told me not to ignore...my nurse who I talked to today for which seemed like an hour...told me all 3 of her labors went so quick....She felt small contrations that didn't hurt and 2 1/2 hrs later, she was holding her little boy in her arms. I've been writting down each time I have one, but nothing has been continuous so far!

Until next time....

The last couple days....

So sunday we went to the lake....pb loved it! we were so surprized, he just ran straight in and couldn't get enough of it. Walter liked it at first but as soon as he got cold..he had enough. Kellie would not go anywhere near the water. We went with my parents thinking we would spend a few hours out there swimming and having fun....it was a lot colder than we thought, so we stayed about an hour and headed back but we did find the perfect spot for when we go back. Everyone wants to go camping in 3 weeks...maybe except me and Baby J.
Last night I made chocolate chip muffins for allan to take to work...and i packed some away so chris could have some....I'm in con today...hangin out with him then back home tonight.
Tomorrow its back to the dr for me....hope he has good news....like maybe i'm dialating!
My cousin had her baby yesterday (well my cousin's g/f). 7 lbs 11 oz 18 1/2 inches long....i thought that was sooo tiny when i heard it. She made it to a "4" and asked for an epidural then soon after that, the babies heartbeat dropped and she had to have an emergency c-section. The baby was distressed! but on the other hand, her water still hadn't broken and she refused to let them break it...i think i would've said...do whatever to get the baby out safe but we'll see how it happens in the end in a couple weeks!

Until next time....