Today....

So i've been having random thoughts I kinda want to get off my chest....i have no idea if more than one person reads this....well i know for sure my husband does....but i'm using this blog to just keep thought for myself...my little escape!
I've been really frustrated with a few things lately. I've tried to not let them get me down. Allan tells everyone i'm the easiest pregnant lady to have around b/c i never have an attitude and i'm rarely cranky! And i want that for him...i don't want him to dread that hour drive to just be around a girl who is complaining all the time, but....i think i've dealt with a lot of "situations" in the past year that I got upset about but i've let go! Some things that have hurt me so bad and caused allan and I to argue...to the point that a month before the wedding, we decided to put it off....we've never told this to anyone b/c frankly its no ones business but our own. Something else happened between allan and I that took a part in our "mishap" a month before the wedding. I really am sorry allan. We've forgiven eachother numerous times for numerous things.....
yesterday I was thinking of how lucky we are to have eachother and that i'm glad we decided to work things out and continue to get married and have our first baby! I'm so happy we met and things have turned out the way they have....I have so much fun with him whether its waking up to his drunk friends at 3a.m. or just having dinner together! If things hadn't worked out the way they have, we wouldn't have our house toghether (thats seems like everytime we turn around, something goes wrong with it), our dogs, or our baby boy. I'm so grateful he loves my family the way he does...my brothers call him their brother and include him in almost everything. My mom loves him and calls him her son...well she's done that since the first time he stayed the night at her house which was the night we started dating! The fact that she even let him stay the night was a shocker! I'm so happy to have him in my life and that my family has accepted him!
I went to the hospital today, to see my cousins daughter...right before my dr appt. She was so cute and tiny, it made me want our boy here so bad! I left feeling really good and hoping my dr appt would go really well......he looks at my chart and says lets hope your at a "3" which is where he really wanted me by this point and tomorrow I would be going up to the hospital to have him....him saying this got me even more excited! I wasn't dialated AT ALL....I have a 10% chance of having him this week. about 50-70% next week then we'll talk about inducing the week after! 16 days left...we've decided my due date is June 19th. I've had a few contrations which they told me not to ignore...my nurse who I talked to today for which seemed like an hour...told me all 3 of her labors went so quick....She felt small contrations that didn't hurt and 2 1/2 hrs later, she was holding her little boy in her arms. I've been writting down each time I have one, but nothing has been continuous so far!

Until next time....