The start of a new week!

So this morning was my dr appt #1 out of 3 for this week and it will tie me over for a month. Today was my glucose test, tomorrow is my visit with my dr (haven't seen him in awhile) and friday is our 3-D sono. I can't wait!!! I did the worst of it all today and from here, its going to be fun! So i'll have pics this weekend. Also, I just found out I'm in charge of my brothers graduation party menu! I was going to do lasagna rollups but he decided he wants bbq chicken. Its a week before my 9th month starts but I think I can handle it.

Today when my mom picked me up from the dr (someone had to-cuz the test makes you loopy) we were talking about the baby room and how the shower turned out when out of no where she says to me, "keep those baby shower decorations-I give you between 8 and 14 months to be pregnant or having another one!" Oh my goodness, I couldn't even imagine being pregnant with another baby when this one isn't out yet...haha. I do only want to be pregnant one more time but at the same time, we want lots of kids so either it has to be multiples the next round or adoption is looking really good for our future! We've already had adoption run thru our heads before we were pregnant and our niece was being put up for adoption (she isn't anymore)..but allan loved her so much and they were really close..when it came time for the court to decide, she was given back to her mother and that was really hard for the both of us. But it was a good thing b/c no way we could handle a toddler and a newborn coming into our lives all at once. I'm happy for the way things worked out.

We made our list of things we still need from a changing pad to a pack n play to a montior....the list keeps going. A good 3 1/2 pages out of my notebook and is a little overwhelming until I broke it down to what we absolutely need to things we just want like the shopping cart cover...They have one that matches our stroller that I really want but for right now..we don't need cuz we wouldn't even be able to use it for a few months. Our dogs seem really comfortable with the swing, bouncer, and bassinet all in the living room. They've been sick the last two nights, so sleep has become a dim memory for me! Allan says we better get used to it and the practice is good for now-he's right but 3 hours of sleep a night is not cutting it lately.Thats all I have for right now!

Until next time...

baby shower...

So yesterday was our baby shower and it was a blast. I know for a fact my mom and husband had a lot of fun...flirting..haha. they were outside throwing snow balls. When we woke up, I was in tears just staring out the window thinking I wouldn't get a shower at all because it had snowed at least 7 inches and there was 3 inches of slush under that so everyone was snowed in. Then we decided to just have it at our house in the evening hoping most of it would melt away. A friend of allan's went and picked up our cake which was an hour away and I was so grateful for that. Most of my family showed up and a few from allan's side did also. We recieved everything from blankets to hooded towls to baby einstein books. I'm so happy to have the family I have. There were a few set backs at the shower but we're trying not to focus on that but rather that happiness from it all. Allan and I were up late last night going thru everything...what needed to be washed, what could be put in drawers. We also started our thank you notes. I said earlier we recieved blankets, blankets, and more blankets. We will never run out of blankets. They were all handmade and the cutest things ever. Most of all, I was so happy my mom had fun...oh and allan stayed thru the whole thing. Usually they don't have boys at these things but he was just sitting out in the garage and kept sneaking in so we just invited him in. I had 2 friends that showed up, one took pics and the other recorded everything. I want to give thanks to them along with everyone else who came, supports us, and gave us beautiful gifts. Here are some pictures from the party. Oh our theme is monkey's if you can't tell....

I may have went a little over board on pics but this is nothing.....allan's fav is the bag that ties to the side of the crib...he wants another one for the other side...they look so convienent...haha. he's really getting into all of this! Its great! Nothing else is new.

Until next time...

Stronger than life...

So... i'm just so emotional today. I guess in a good way. I watch how hard my mom struggles with certain things in her life and I just want to grab her and hug her. She is one of the most important people in my life and I have no idea what I would do without her. She teaches me to be strong and I love her for that. I hope that my younger brother will not neglect her once he's out of the house and off at college. I could see him never coming back home again. But looking back when I was a senior in h.s. I never wanted to be in this town again and look at me now. 2 months into college, I never wanted to be anywhere else but this town. I hope he learns what he needs to, to be able to survive on his own. I pray for him and my other two brothers everyday as well. As for my youngest brother, he thinks he stronger than he is and I just wish he would be more sensitive. He seen my belly move the other night when I was laying back in a chair. Everyone was surrounding me and he walked over and seen it. He started freaking out. At the same time, I think he liked being able to see something like that. I don't really have any worries for him at the moment. And finally, my oldest younger brother who isn't with us anymore. I love you so much and I hope your looking down now and just so happy on seeing how your family is turning out. The other day, I took allan to his grave site for the first time...It was the first time I had been up there in a couple years...but anyways we started walking up towards him and allan said, "I didn't realize his middle name is james, is that going to be okay?" This is strange b/c we are naming our little boy's middle name james also...it didn't even occur to me. So I guess overall, this is me being extremely thankful for all the family I have and everyone who supports my family. Because while I sit and think about them everyday...I'm starting a new family with allan. Hopefully one day it will be as big as we hope. But for now its the 5 of us and I love that!
I love you babe!

Until next time....

Not much going on...

I don't really have anything to report....pretty boring around here. I did my brothers senior pics..well finished them up (kind of-he's picky so he'll want more). I also got asked if I could do a wedding which was really exciting. But it's 2 weeks before I'm due so I don't really know. And another kid was interested in me doing his senior pics...so i got the great idea to start my own website. and since I have no idea on how to do that. I ended up with a site annajacksonphotography.synthasite.com I don't really like the synthasite part, but I didn't really know what I was doing.. I think it looks good for now anyways. And I still want to take classes. I've taken all Cloud has to offer but I was talking to Allan's uncle who works at K-State and he says he's been there for other people that he could pull some strings. So hopefully I'll be able to talk directly to their photography instructor...which has been pretty hard getting ahold of. Other than that...I don't really have anything....here's some of the pics I took of chris.




Until next time...

45 minute waiting for 5 mintues!

So we were supposed to have out 3D ultrasound today and we get there, wait 45 minutes and are done in 5. Our dates were wrong and it turns out we're only 25 1/2 weeks rather than 27 weeks so we go back in 2 weeks for another and I had to change my GT (glucose) test. We did get to see him though and he's very healthy. His thighs are so fat..haha. He's still breech but has a few weeks to change or the doctor will try to do it. Placenta Previa isn't an option anymore like they thought it was. Just means the placenta is below the uterus and I would automatically have to have c-section so good news, now lets just hope he moves and isn't breech when it comes time to deliver. nothing else really. allan and his uncle (thank you so much) laid our new flooring this weekend, pics to come, and its looks amazing. I love it. It looks so much brighter and just feels overall cleaner. dogs hate it thought (well warming up). pb just walks around and his back legs slip out from underneath him and lands him on his you know what.

On not so good note...allan's gpa is in the hospital from having a few strokes over the weekend. We finally made it down to see him today (I told allan we were and I was calling in for work for him-he just said ok and knew to listen). He looked a lot better than I thought he was going to. He knew who we were which I was so grateful for b/c of allan. I didn't want his feelings to get hurt or have a hard time understanding why he wouldn't know him. But he knew our names and even sung happy birthday to me. (everyone told him it was my bday cuz thats all he could really say and they wanted him to speak as much as possible). The only thing allan had a hard time with was we took a sono pic down for him to have in his room and when we tried explaining I was pregnant and the name would carry on..he didn't understand, and that hurt allan so much but I think overall, he's going to get a lot better. Their going to work with him for the next 3-5 weeks and already see improvement. Just last weekend we were celebrating his 80th bday. He gave me a hug and said we love you and thank you so much for having a little boy and thats all allan could think about this morning when he didn't want to go see his gpa in a bad positon. Please keep him in your prayers along with my wonderful husband who is trying his hardest to be strong.

Until next time....

Ranting...

I really don't know how to start this entry or even what to put in it. I woke up this morning and read something I was really offended by and it just put me in a bad mood all day. That and I only got about 3 1/2 hours of sleep last night. Not because I'm pregnant and umcomfortable. Everyone keeps asking if I'm uncomfortable sleeping and the answer is no...i don't have those sleepless nights because of him...my son actually puts me asleep most night...just thinking of how lucky my husband and I could be to be having a child and his kicks and punches aren't hurtful yet. Yes, at times they catch me off guard but I will never say I'm uncomfortable b/c of him.

So anyways, I was offended by something I read today and it just got me thinking of how quiet I am and how I wasn't always like this. In high school, I was a loud mouth. I wasn't afraid of saying what was on my mind or pissing someone off because of what I thought. And even when I met Allan, I was loud. I didn't keep anything to myself. I think a mixture of that and the fact that neither one of us wanted a relationship is why we worked out so well. From day one, we both told eachother we wanted nothing serious so I didn't keep anything to myself. We were best friends before we fell in love. Back to my original point, I'm not going to be keeping things to myself anymore. If I don't like something you say, don't be surprized if I say something that offends you, or even hurt your feelings. I'm not saying this to be mean, just getting it out there, I'm not misses nice girl anymore. I'm tired of people saying whatever they want behind my back and hurting me and my families feelings.

I was in such a bad mood today, I went to 3 different stores, trying to get this off my mind, and it didn't work. So I finally found a solution....I baked a cake I seen in a magazine. Seeing what it was supposed to look like and how it turned out made me laugh. Plus Baby J and I were dancing all over the house, how could I stay angry ALL day...haha

So I think that was me ranting...sorry if it sounds a little mean...but thats how I feel, for now!

Until next time....

Going Crazzzyyy!!!

So I've found this new site www.etsy.com ..or at least new to me and I'm going crazy...i love it, i love it, i love it!!!

Here's some stuff I've found but I'm going to wait closer till the baby is here to order it..if I still have my heart set on it!!!

And just in case I have a girl...i love tutus!!!

Nothing else is new! We got our flooring today but still stacked up on our kitchen floor so we'll see when it gets laid...

Until next time...

2nd Big Scare!

So two days ago, I had really bad cramps to where I couldn't walk or move. That was around 1 or 2 in the afternoon (monday). Usually during the night(2-3a.m.) Baby J wakes me up by kicking or moving around a lot but I never woke up monday night. So tuesday I still hadn't felt him so I called my dr and he said go straight to labor and delivery up at the hospital. I got up there and they were all ready for me, had my room ready, the incubator ready(not sure if I spelled that right) so immediately I start freaking out. The nurse starts looking for the heartbeat and she can't find it. She has a worried look on her face and after 20 min she tells the other nurse to go get the doppler...my mom and I thought she said doctor and we start crying hysterically and the nurse still doesn't say a work. Her "helper" (student sitting in) tells us she just found it..the nurse looks up and says "no i haven't, that was the mothers." Which didn't help matters at all! She finally found it about 10 min later...after my mom had already called Allan crying and telling him to head up there NOW! He had moved so low, that he had room to kick, punch, move in the space above him, so he wasn't kicking me...thats why I didn't feel him. She wasn't looking low enough for the heartbeat either. So I had to lay up in the hospital the next hour and 1/2 just to monitor things. They said he hadn't stopped moving since I had gotten hooked up to the machine but I still wasn't feeling a thing. Allan made it with tears in his eyes but now everything's ok and we're back to normal-Kicking me in the middle of the night again....but right now, he can kick as hard as he wants.

Also, we finally found a dresser that matched our crib. It was a little more pricey than we wanted but thats ok. I think the only other big thing I'm worried about getting, is the basinet. They have one at Babies R Us that both allan and I fell in love with but I think we'll wait until after the shower to finish our shopping.

Oh-also, this weekend, while we were in wichita for Allan's sister's B-day..we stayed at birthday girls house. Allan didn't get any sleep, either a lady on tv was yelling or someone outside was...he got stuck staying up watching tv from 1 to 4:30...but the big news was that peanut butter somehow got out of another one of allan's sister's backyard. Luckily, kellie didn't get out and when we found pb, it looked like he was trying to get back to her. He was only one block away from Central Rd. and had Allan so panicked, he wasn't talking to me. We didn't stay too long after that, It was about all we could handle in a weekend.

Until next time....